Christchurh,Oxford

I wandered onto the grounds of this great big place.The weather was appalling,the grass magnificent.There were all kinds of people wandering around going about their business and some ,like me ,i thought ,were looking rather pompous with the air and pretense of knowledgeability.(obviously my judgements here!)I had no clue why ,on a whim ,I decided I was going to visit Oxford and funny enough I visited Cathedrals on that day.You will remember that I said I was not necesarily a Christian myself.I know that on that day ,on my own in the pulpit I tried desperately to make sense of it all....nothing....I started praying.I am not even sure in what language I prayed but does it matter?

I wonder if this means that I have already accepted what is,my journey into the unknown.I dont understand much about" Dante`s Inferno" but could it be that I have entered my own "dark wood" and that I am going to wander around here until I am shown the way by my own "Virgil".

Do I wait here for my Virgil,am I my own Virgil? is my intuition,my instinct all I need.I know for sure that I can not get `out` of the wood by walking around the garden/grounds.I know I have to go through the Dark Wood no matter how scary it feels.All I have to do is trust,trust whomever,whatever has taken me from my country of birth,through South Africa and into the United Kingdom.I have been skirting around the grounds for far too long .My Virgil is right here,right now,in me and gently leading me to Paradise.I know Paradise awaits but I also know that I have to go though the Dark Wood for there are no shortcuts to it.In the Dark Wood herein lie my lessons..lessons of bravery,warriorship,courage ,self belief,self love,compassion,love,acceptance and above all connection with everything and everyone.


I feel at this point that this is the end of the first phase of my journey so now I willingly allow myself to enter the "Dark Wood" and be my own Virgil.

My next communications will be about my new phase in the Dark Wood...for now thank you for having joined me on this wonderful journey..Good night and God Bless