What`s the fear all about? Aha! It just occured to me that it would have been better to keep the pretense that I have the potential rather than to find out that I haven`t got any.I`ve always felt that there was more to me than the physical form and I`ve always spoken about the day I become "me",but what if when I become "me" realize that "me" is just ordinary,boring and not worth knowing?Would I be able to live with that? Would I be able to live with myself.Surely it is better to keep putting it off and live the fantasy of the"when I become myself"....Who am I kidding? Im past the stage of fear and of holding back.I have already moved beyond the fantasy.I am already living the life of "me" and this is no ordinary life.I am learning so much,I am excited like I`ve never been excited before.I am looking forward to more and frankly I don`t really care if when I get to "me" I find an old bespectacled boring old maid.I am having such fun learning.It is painful.It is funny,its encouraging and besides,I`ve never been boring in my life!
Well that puts to bed that need for that particular fear.This is now the process of elimination.I wont rest until I have cleared the "drains" as Mike George,author of The 7 AHAs of Highly enlightened Souls calls them.I ,however,want to clear my drains and not close them for I view them as the conduit thrugh which fear passed to make room for courage,hope,love and ALL the other loving emotions that I`m feeling right now.Amen!
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