lessons learnt

I am completely shattered.The gods must be laughing at my stupidity.I thought they were giving me a man to love and cherish but all Ive incurred is pain and humiliation.I can only learn from this situation.The lesson being remain open to love and live life to the full.There is nothing to fear anymore.If I can go thru this amount of humiliation then nothing else matters.

I know life will never be the same again.I have never had anyone invoke such intense feelings in me before,I may never feel this way again but what I know is that I will never take life for granted ever again.I will not wait for tomorrow to do things.I will not fear anything anymore.I felt extreme love,life,fear and pain all in a space of one week.This is my wake up call.Life is now and it is to be lived.I have to be alive.I have to do what I want to do.I cant put things off anymore.He was not sent to me to be my lover but he was a messenger of life.He was sent to jolt me out of unconsciousness and lethargy and apathy..to ensure that I live life to the fullest.No more excuses,no more fear,no more half hearted attempts at life.

The brick hurt so badly so as to awaken me.Never will I be complacent again therefore instead of being angry I should be thanking Ondre for waking me up from the dead.Farewell my dear!!!!!!!!!!